Take Heart!

"Jesus turned and saw her. 'Take heart, daughter,' He said, 'your faith has healed you.' And the woman was healed from that moment." Matthew 9:22

Lately, I have been lacking the faith that God can heal me of my addiction. I've gained back all the weight I had lost. Knowing better, I walked right back into the trap of sin, thinking that I could let go of it on my own at any time. I'll admit that I thought I could lose it through nursing or just not eating once I was done being pregnant. And here I am unable to get any ground. A picture of how I'm feeling is bald tires spinning on ice: turning and turning, there's no traction and very little hope.

But, as I've been reading the Bible again, I realize that my hope cannot be in my own ability to be more perfect. Without excuses, I am a sinner in need of forgiveness and life change. I am again at a spot where I must admit defeat and rely on the power of Jesus to save and to heal. Only He can! I get no glory from this situation. I look and feel awful. BUT, I believe that God can save anyone He chooses to. And I believe that He can heal someone instantly if He wants to. And I'm hoping like the woman in this story that I can somehow press through and grab just the tip of His cloak... that through faith in Him alone and His power to heal, I can be restored to who I was meant to be.

I have no hope on my own. My only prayer is for Jesus to rescue me. I know He can. I believe He can. I'm willing to wait and push on. I'm willing to believe that He is the giver of good gifts and that He can make me "healed from that very moment." I invite you to pray with me!

Dear Heavenly Father, You are holy. You are perfect and righteous. I, on the other hand, have sinned greatly before you. The sin I've committed has caused me to look and feel bad. I can't seem to change on my own. So, I'm desperately seeking You. If only I could touch You here where I'm at, I believe You can save me. Truly, You are my only hope! Please, don't let me go unnoticed. Please forgive the terrible sins I've committed. Please keep me from evil. May Your good and gracious will be done in my life. I commit myself to You, in the name of Your glory. Thank You for Your amazing Word and faithfulness. Thank You for bringing life to death and healing us. In Jesus' Name, AMEN!